My feelings after I read it

I've read it..
She wrote on her blog.. about the four us..
At first,, it was hard to know which one is me,, which one is her
and which is the other two..
Because she uses different names..
After read for a few times,, I've realize which one is me
And I realize the three of them didn't even care about my feelings..
It made me so sad and disappointed in them..
But at least I know what's on their mind right now even though I already expected
this to happen..
She said I behave like this cause of my family background..
But she didn't know that I behave like this cause of them..
I don't know what to say anymore,,
I felt like I'm the dumbest person in this world to always have trust, love and faith for them..
I don't want to believe or have hopes for them anymore even if I really want to
Cause I'm afraid that they will leave me again...